Garden of Eden

Wow! I can't even tell you how much fun I had last night at Garden of Eden! I have not been able to go raving in several weeks because of my health and finally getting to go out, kick ass and take 1,200+ pictures! I've SOOOOO missed it. I absolutely love going out and being able to take pictures of people. It makes so many people happy and there are an endless number of people that are thankful that we photographers are there to take pictures so that they don't have to worry about getting cameras in or taking pictures. They can have fun and hit us up when they spot us. It's good stuff!

I did end up getting to the party late, around 12:00 AM, but in the six hours that I was there I managed to get 1,223 pictures. I think that if I had been there at 9:00 PM when it had started I might have broken 1,500 pictures for sure and maybe, just maybe, I might have hit 1,800 pictures. When I start approaching that number I'm going to be limited to my second battery's life as well as my lame flash recycle time. One of the many reasons that I want to get my external flash, it will cut the flash recycle time down by quite a bit. It will consume more AA batteries but will lessen the load on my camera's battery. Still planning on getting the battery grip to upgrade my camera from one battery to two. I average about 800 pictures per battery charge, so two should be about 1,600 photos, however with it streamed two at a time it should take the picture count to around 2,000 per battery set. Now, when I add the external flash, which will lessen the camera battery consumption even more, so hopefully I'll be able to get around 3,000 pictures per dual battery charge.

To shorten everything up of what I just said, I'm hoping to be able to take 3,000 pictures before having to change batteries with a flash recycle time of no more then one second. It basically means that I can fire picture after picture after picture without stopping until I hit my 3,000th picture.

Good times. :)

Oh! Happy Birthday JewelzZz! :D

You don't know what you've got till it's gone...

That saying is oh so true in so many different ways and applications. In this reference I'm talking about my health. My health over the past three to four weeks has been shoddy at best. One minute I'm whistling Dixie, and the next, I'm head first into a world of pain. Seriously, within 30 minutes I can go from having a great day with a little twinge to being in seriously crippling pain. The weird thing is, is that it's not an identifiable pain. It's not something that you can say, ouch my arm hurts because I lifted weights for several hours the night before, no, it's the weird phantom pain that you feel but you know you can't really feel.

It's been hard on me and on my job because when it starts to come on and when it's actually there it totally blows out my concentration. I can't think clearly and I can't focus on tasks as readily as I should be able to. All I can think about is how I want it to go away and debate on whether or not it's going to get worse and at which point do I take the pain killer the doctor prescribed. Understand that I don't like taking any medication or pills, whether prescribed or not. It's just my thing to not want to take anything like that. I mean sure, I take a multivitamin daily but that's the extent of what I want to take. I prefer things to run their natural course and don't like to take things that aren't.

I dunno...it's just been rough trying to continue doing normal things, hanging out with friends, taking pictures on the weekends. It's like having someone nagging you constantly. Sometimes you can deal with it and put it out of your head. Other times it gets to the point where you can't focus on anything else and all you care about is getting them to shut up. You're less prone to want to go out in public areas because you don't want people looking at you weird and that it's so much easier to just deal with it at home.

I know I need to figure out what's going wrong. I've already gotten blood work and an MRI done and both put me in excellent health, but if I'm doing so well, why am I doing so bad? I know the next step is to escalate this to a neurologist, which I plan on doing when I get my new insurance set up and running, but I just hope that they can figure out some definitive answer. I'm not hoping for something to be wrong with me, I don't need an excuse or an escape route, I'm just tired of doctors saying that I'm weird and that they are just "ticks" and I'll have to learn to deal with them. That's their nice way of saying, "I don't have a frigging clue with what's wrong with you but thanks for playing and have a nice day!"

I dunno...I just want to be better and not be in pain anymore. :\

The Dark Knight - Joker Interrogation Scene Spoof

This is endlessly awesome and never gets old! XD This is totally for Beth and Islay!



Joker: *smacks lips*

Batman: "Why do you want to kill me?"

Joker: *smacks lips* "Uh, you, you mind, uh, saying that one more time?"

Batman: "Why do you want to kill me?"

Joker: *pops lips* "Wa, wa, um..."

Batman: "Why do you want to kill me!?"

Joker: *smacks lips*

Batman: "I said why do you want to kill me!?!?"

Joker: *smacks lips* "Um, okay...um. I, I uh. I don't know if it's just me, but, I uh, I can't understand what you're saying."

Batman: "Don't play around with me Joker!"

Joker: "Nope, still, still, uh, still...just gutteral sounds...to my ears."

Batman: "Don't play around with me Joker! Tell me where they are!"

Joker: "Okay, um...We're, we're obvious having some failure communication. I...um...I'm not picking up words."

Batman: "Don't play games with me Joker!" *punch*

Joker: "Uh..."

Batman: "Where is he!?"

Joker: "Okay...not, not going to help, the hitting."

Batman: "Where is Harvy Dent?"

Joker: "Look, I, I can't. I don't even know if that was a question or a declarative statement."

Batman: "What did you do with him?"

Joker: "I'm not joking, I can't I really can't understand, anything that you are saying. Nothing!"

Batman: "Where is he?"

Joker: "Have you, have you been to a doctor lately, because I think you may have a very severe case of throat cancer."

Batman: "I don't have throat cancer!" *punch*

Joker: "Ungh..."

Batman: "Tell me where they are!"

Joker: "There's nothing in the English language that sounds anything like that."

Batman: "Where is he!?"

Joker: "Are you, are you speaking bat? Is that what bat sounds like?"

Batman: *punch*

Joker: "Oh God..."

Batman: "Where is he!!?"

Joker: "I'd really, I'd really like to answer your questions, I just, I don't know what they are!"

Batman: *punch* "Tell me where they are!"

Joker: "You are not speaking anything any human can understand! Am I crazy here!? Okay, I know I'm crazy, but I, I know I can't understand anything that you're saying! So, why don...oh, ju...sound it out! Come uh...tu...ta..."

Batman: "Where are they!?!?"

Joker: "Annunciate! Annun..."

Batman: *punch*

Joker: *sigh* "Annunciate do you know what that means? It's not, it has nothing to do with physical contact."

Batman: "Where are they!?!?"

Joker: "How do you even commicate with anybody!?"

Batman: "Where are they!?"

Joker: "I can't, there's no words coming out of his mouth. Am I right? There's no..."

Batman: *punch*

Joker: "There there there's fists coming out."

Batman: "Where are they!?"

Joker: "Blergergargergahgah!! D-do you see what it sounds like!?"

Batman: *punch* "Where are they!?"

Joker: "Just tell me if it's a noun, a verb, just give me, give me something to work with here. Write it on a piece of paper. I don't...I can't understand what you're saying!"

Batman: *punch*

Blogs are a funny thing!

Ah ha ha ha ha ha! Well, we can see here that I don't keep my blog much up to date! Ha ha ha ha!

Oh well, "C'est la vie!"

Well, just upgraded the software to be current and added a few new cool things like my tweets and the dandy ID sidebar. It's cool and should help people link to me and find me easier if that's what they want to do. :p

Any who, I'm off to see the doctor again to check up and see what the next steps in this medical crap process that I'm going through. Did get to work out yesterday with Corey, which was cool, but he totally kicked my ass. I've got three Tiger Balm hot pads on me right now to try to get rid of some of the soreness. Really probably should go do some stretching and do a little weight workout to get all the lactic acid out of my muscles.

"Where did it all go wrong?"

~~ Where did it all go wrong - Oasis ~~
you know that feeling you get
you feel your older than time
you ain't exactly sure
if you've been away a while

do you KEEP the reciepts
for the friends that you buy
and ain't it bittersweet
you're only just getting by

but i hope you know
that it wont let go
it sticks around with you until the day you die
and i hope you know
that it's touch and go
i hope the tears dont stain the world that waits outside
where did it all go wrong?

and until you've repaid
the dreams you've bought for your lies
you'll be cast away
alone under stormy skies
alone under stormy skies

but i hope you know
That it won't let go
it sticks around with you until the day you die
and i hope you know
that it's touch and go
i hope the tears dont stain the world that waits outside
where did it all go wrong?

but i hope you know
that it won't let go
it sticks around with you untill the day you die

and I hope you know
that it's touch and go
i hope the tears dont stain the world that waits outside

but i hope you know
that it won't let go
it sticks around with you untill the day you die

and I hope you know
that it's touch and go
i hope the tears dont stain the world that waits outside

where did it all go wrong?
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Some days I feel...........lost.

Can someone come in and save me? I've been saving others for so long, how do you know when you need to be helped?

When do I get my happiness back?

I thought I put in my dues, but I guess I didn't give enough.

Damn...I think it's sleepy sleepy time. I should feel better in the morning.

I just wish I knew what I was doing...

Single Awareness Day

I'm so glad that Valentine's Day is over and done with. I have not liked this day for the past 5 years, granted that last year was looking up, but that's all done and over with now.

My first year that I was down here in Southern California, my first Valentine's Day was pretty cool. I sent some cards, some chocolate, and love out to a few people. The next year I didn't feel the same, so didn't send out anything, and I don't think I got anything except cards from my family. As time has gone by I've gotten a little bitter about the 14th of February. It's just another day for the stores to reap in some cash during a slow month. I mean if you truly love the person you're with then the so called "Valentine's Day" happens multiple times of the year with no reason or rhyme.

You just go out and DO IT.

You come home with some surprise flowers, buy her a bear, jewelery, dinner, whatever. When she asks why, you say "Because I love you!" That's it, you don't need one day to lump all of your life's savings into and hope you make it through the rest of the year. That's just stupid.

Valentine's Day brings so many good memories of when I was younger. Giving out candy hearts to your friends, making cards to give to girls, eating candy, and acting silly. After I left home, it's been pretty devoid to me and several other friends of mine. It's such a stupid topic, people are either really happy about it and are looking forward to it, or others are dreading it, wondering who they can hook up with so that they at least won't be alone and will have a "Valentine."

I guess if I was a player, then Guillermo's advice would work well. Think about it...girls probably don't want to be alone on Valentine's day as much if not more then guys. So, wash up, put on some nice clothes, spray on some cologne, and say hello ladies!

Meh...whatever. Not me. Getting nice to look nice, sure, getting nice to play the field...bah. I've never been good at it, and even if I was my personality wouldn't allow it. I'm too nice to be a jack-ass.

Any who, I hope those of you that did have someone had a good day. For the rest of us, remember this...

Valentine's chocolate goes on sale! Woot woot! :P

Thoughts about life...

Some mornings you wake up feeling up.

Some mornings you wake up feeling down.

And some mornings you can't distinguish between the two.

Things that happen in life are quite interesting to watch unfold. You're writing your own story while others are writing theirs and sometimes both of your books match up, and then move on. I've been raving quite a bit recently, and have been having a blast at every event that I've been to. The only time that I didn't have a full loaded night of fun was last night when we went to Lyrics for a Victoria's Secret Valentine's Rave. I wish I had done more research, and I wish that my friend knew that she wasn't going to get to dance during one of her DJ friend's sets because I probably would have chosen to not go. The night did have some fun times, I mean we got to chat with Royal a bit, and I got to say hello to Andrey again. Last time I saw him was at Nocturnal Wonderland 2005, my first rave.

Maybe it's the scene that's got me wiggin a little. Maybe it's the rave, Event Horizon 2006, I'm going to tonight. Maybe it's because Grant's here and he doesn't like raves at all and I put him through hell last night, I dunno. There are so many possible reasons, but trying to pinpoint which it is really doesn't do anything but burn time, and that's not something I have a lot of these days.

I dunno, maybe I want to be able to hang out with certain people from the scene outside of the rave so that it feels like we're real friends that I can call to say hello, talk to, and hang out with, rather then feeling like I only know them at the rave. I guess that's partly my fault since I'm 25 and most of them aren't near that age. Maybe I have more time under my belt and want more then a quick weekend pick-me-up. Maybe I'm scared, and I think this is true whether the previous statement is true or not. Anyone that I hang out with that is under 18 I put myself in jeopardy. My friend found this out the hard way when the law stated that 18 is 18 and it doesn't matter if she turns 18 in a week, 17 isn't 18.

I'm not much for taking non-calculable risks, and the one thing if nothing else that I learned back in High School is that girls are completely 100% incalculable. They are definitely unique, and that's probably what strikes the most fear into me. I've always been able to figure most things out, but never once have I figured out girls.

Oh well, guess that's the fun puzzles of life.